Wednesday, February 11, 2009

:(

Look, I don't want to break up. The thought never even crossed my mind. I'm upset, I'll admit it, but I still love you. One thing's not going to change that. It's just.. I don't even know... I guess.. I really really really trusted you and I know you don't really believe that but it's true. For the first time I actually trusted a boy 100%..and now look where it got me. I'm not trying to make you feel bad.. I'm done trying to hurt your feelings.. I just want things to be better. I know I'm the only thing keeping us from being happy right now but I know what's going to happen. If you thought I was insecure before you honestly have no idea what I'm going to be like now. Every time you talk about people from school, everytime you use your phone.. Fuck! That's not what I want. Yeah, I forgive people and I don't really hold grudges but to forget? Forgetting is something I've never been able to do. Stuff will be better soon... I know that's not what you want to hear.. but I can't just sit here and rebuild myself in one day.

I'm sorry.
I love you Mikey. I really do.
I always will.